Tavius has been writing his entire adult life, since freshman year at college after witnessing a senior english major reading. Tavius has used journaling and creative writing to work through mental health issues, addiction, alcoholism, codependency, incarceration, and the loss of an only child, his son, 16 year old Gabriel. This book is an intimate peak into the thoughts, feelings, and experiences Tavius has trying to recover again and regain his life after long term sobriety, recovery and then relapse. This is an account of great personal struggle, challenge, and the feverish work it took to overcome the odds and come out the other side a greater man and individual.