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​Martine is a community advocate, speaker, writer. Featured at LinkedIn #TransformHer 2018 as Speaker and Guest. Huffington Post contributor on her undocumented immigrant struggle in America.

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Martine has over 10 years of experience in building global training programs in Fortune 500 companies and in the start-up environment. As a learning and development consultant Martine offers her clients organizational development strategy, curriculum/instructional design, train the trainer, soft skills training such as management training and communication skills and executive coaching.

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Woman Without An Identity

In order to love yourself, you have to discover who loved you first.

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Are you Martine Mwanj Kalaw? If so, your father is looking for you.

Martine Kalaw is forced to make a choice in an immigration courtroom; save herself or her mother’s legacy. Her decision catapults her into a tumultuous and longstanding battle with immigration and a personal struggle to discover her identity.

Ten years later, at age thirty three, a social media message reconnects Martine with the father she thought dead for twenty years. Here begins the story of a prep-school illegal immigrant’s return to her birthland of Zambia, where she discovers the layers of truth behind her mother’s death from AIDS, her father’s abuse and the painful circumstances that led to her overnight disappearance to America. Joined by Celeste, a feisty American (and very pregnant) best friend.

Between scenes of unraveling family history, Martine and Celeste’s adventures round out the story’s hardships, offering a nuanced and complex view of modern Africa. Visiting Zambia at the height of the ebola panic, and riots erupting when a white president is reinstated for the first time since liberation, the women find Zambia to be a warm, but complex, country. 

Martine confronts the visceral poverty of her early existence, nineteen new siblings presented by a polygamous family, and the interwoven joy and pain of rediscovering home after thirty years. The backdrop of Martine’s story echos with the terrors and triumphs of living between the margins. Orphaned at fifteen by an abusive and alcoholic mother, Martine finds herself bouncing between the homes of cruel Aunties, pulled from school illegally and working in a Washington D.C. consignment shop. In a string of magical happenstances, life takes a swift turn, landing Martine at private boarding school, funded by an anonymous donor. 

A typical American college girl by all appearances, Martine’s innocent ignorance of her own immigration status erupts in a battle for US citizenship while avoiding deportation to her country of origin, the war-torn Democratic Republic of the Congo. Without documentation on the African continent in either DRC or Zambia, no country claims a stateless Martine. 

After seven years, six lawyers, numerous Master Calendar hearings, motions, rejections, appeals and testimony before the U.S. Congress (on behalf of The Dream Act), in 2012 Martine becomes a U.S. citizen and two years later she returns to Zambia. Only then does Martine discover a truth about her mother and father which ultimately brings her resolve.


Martine’s coming-of-age story shines a light on the current climate of immigration, but chooses the voice of an Elizabeth Gilbert or Anne Lamott to bring an outsider’s tale into mainstream perspective. Despite immense hardship, Martine is a successful, bright young woman, without a blush of a stereotypical immigrant persona - in many ways she is, in fact, the ultimate “American girl.” 

Touching, poignant and often very funny, Martine’s memoir centers around three themes: her mother, father and immigration.  Martine seeks to understand the complex and often hurtful woman that was her mother. The love between Martine and her mother is challenged in an immigration courtroom where she fights for her identity. After years of hardship as an undocumented immigrant Martine finally gets a “green card” and eventually U.S. citizenship. However, the identity that she is in search of still evades her. Years later Martine reconnects with her father, a complicated man seeking to make amends for his history of abuse, who also happens to be an accomplished painter. Each night on the back porch of a hostel, Martine’s father offers a new clue about her family history - her mother’s trajectory from the Congo to Zambia, the origin of her many siblings, the story of her immigration. It is his honesty and vulnerability that answers long held questions for Martine, and opens her eyes to another path life could have taken.

Celeste, half white and half Filipina, is Martine’s best friend who accompanies her to Africa. She walks the streets alone in search of coffee and is greeted kindly by strangers. Martine feels the burn of wealthy white eyes questioning her presence at an upscale hotel bar. 

Though African in origin, American-identifying “girly-girl” Martine struggles for the first time to use a non-electric outhouse bathroom, contracts traveler’s diarrhea on a seven hour bus ride from Lusaka to Livingstone and jokes about perpetuating African stereotypes while “walking with lions” on an Botswana safari. In a role-reversal, brazen Celeste supports Martine in her new discoveries. It is Celeste who reminds Martine that most of the world lives in visceral poverty, and to suspend pity when visiting family. 

Celeste walks beside Martine while tracing her mother’s footsteps to the decrepit hospital where she was born, and charms the entire clan, providing a joyful distraction from Martine’s deep culture shock. Confronting her own surfacing stereotypes, Martine leaves Zambia a different person: one with a country, a father and a history that asks for patience to fully accept.


Martine has ten minutes to decide if she will betray her mother or not. This decision will change the course of her life and could also save her from being deported. The decision she makes has repercussions, like her continued lack of self worth and identity. All of that changes almost a decade later when a stranger claims to be Martine’s father through social media. That’s how we come to meet Celeste, Martine’s friend. The two women decide to travel to Zambia to meet Martine’s father.  However, a few challenges stand in the way of the women actually making their journey.  The first is revealed at a mutual friend’s wedding.

  • Betrayal
  • To Africa We Go
  • KKK
  • Pain Relief
  • Lost and Found
  • Priti’s Wedding
  • STAB


Martine walks us through her painful past, which is somehow sprinkled with serendipitous happenstances.  Martine just might be the unluckiest girl we have ever met.  But then again, maybe she’s the luckiest girl we know.  Just how did she get into boarding school after being orphaned and abandoned by her aunts? We begin to understand what it feels like to spend 7 years in deportation proceedings.

By exploring her journey we too become “illegal aliens”.  How did Martine get to that point in her life?  Martine draws parallels between being undocumented to any circumstance of being in limbo and reminds us of the torment that uncertainty brings.

  • Ready to Take Off
  • An Enigma
  • Goodbye Paris
  • A Witch Hunt
  • Us vs. Them
  • Statelessness


Celeste and Martine spend countless hours preparing for Martine’s reunion with her dad. It becomes increasingly difficult for Martine to deal with the suspense of meeting this man along with the culture shock she experiences in her native Zambia. Celeste’s reassurance and guidance allows Martine to cope.

Martine finally lays eyes on her father.  He is nothing like Martine imagined. Strangers, who are supposedly her siblings are forced into her life, along with the immediate obligatory financial support that is expected of Martine. Martine past is direct competition with the abject poverty surrounding her family. Will she earn her family’s validation

  • We’re in Africa
  • Annihilation by ICE
  • The Other Man
  • It’s Surreal
  • He’s So Hyper
  • Worth Authorization
  • Fame
  • Finality
  • Mr. K.K.


Mr. K.K. has carefully planned the next nine days for his daughter. He walks Martine through the history of her birth, relishing the memories that he tucked away for over twenty years.  Martine’s identity reveals itself as she literally walks in her mother’s footsteps.  As she marches down the corridor of the hospital she was born, more surprises await like apparitions. This journey is emotional for Celeste too as she receives gnawing reminders that she’s having a baby, something completely foreign to her.  The past and the present intertwine when Martine meets her late mother’s friends. She begins to paint a picture of her mother through their lens and the enigma who was her mom becomes a puzzle worth solving

  • 1981
  • Stepmoms
  • Amebic Dysentery
  • The Lion Walk
  • Everything’s Black & White


If Martine’s dead mother is a puzzle then her father is the keeper of all the pieces. Each evening under the African night sky, Martine’s dad unveils another answer to a mystery about her mother and what led to her disappearance to America. Martine fills in the gaps of everything that led up to her mother’s death and why it became the core evidence in her immigration case.  We also understand why the immigration judge went on a crusade to annihilate Martine. 

  • Love
  • Ya Marie
  • The Seventh Day


In their last night in Livingstone, Zambia, Mr. K.K. unleashes information that is as shocking as it is resounding. It will never leave Martine the same.

Martine has two more days remaining in Zambia with her dad. The emotions of the past few days overwhelm her and she seeks refuge in what is most familiar to her,  a luxurious 5 star hotel in Zambia where she basks in the idea of being in Africa while shielding herself from guilt.  The ruse is up when her dad and sister pay her an unexpected visit at her hotel and begin to make assumptions about Martine’s wealth.  Martine feels entitled, after all that she has been through.  Yet why does she feel like she needs to hide it?

  • Luxurious Guilt
  • Tusks
  • An African Blessing


The women have to say goodbye to Zambia and to Mr. K.K. Martine carries a new burden with her on the flight back home to the U.S. A few days later, on Thanksgiving Day, she makes another important trip, one which allows her to finally bury her burden and grief and truly experience freedom. 

  • Dad
  • The Mindy Project
  • Freedom
  • Let It Be Green



Primary audience for Women Without An Identity is educated women in America--both local and immigrants--early to mid-adulthood. 

Despite the vulnerabilities and barriers immigrant women face, they continue to make important contributions to our society and our economy. According to Status of Women of the United States, approximately 21 million female immigrants live in the United States, making up just over 13 percent of the nation’s female population. In their multiple roles as students, professionals and other workers, spouses, parents, and caregivers, immigrant women make important contributions to local communities, the economy, and society.

The face of today’s U.S. immigrants is more female than male. In 2011 51.1 percent of all foreign-born individuals residing in the United States—and 55 percent of all people obtaining a green card—were women. That same year, women comprised 48 percent of all refugee arrivals, 49 percent of all people granted asylum, and 54 percent of all people who naturalized to become U.S. citizens.

Immigrant women embrace citizenship and encourage integration. According to 2009 public opinion research by New America Media, immigrant women from a broad range of countries are overwhelmingly the drivers of naturalization in their families, with 58 percent of respondents stating that they felt the strongest in their family about becoming an American citizen. Overall, 84 percent of the women surveyed want to become citizens, with a whopping 90 percent of female immigrants from Latin American and Arab nations indicating their desire to naturalize. In 2010 immigrant women comprised 40 percent of all immigrant business owners and 20 percent of women business owners in general. 

Secondary markets include:

  1. College-age women
  2. Adolescents, pivoted for integration in high schools
  3. Middle-Aged women in Western countries
  4. Women of African descent, origin, living on the continent or abroad
  5. Immigration activists and policy makers
  6. Oprah’s book club fans


Here is a recap of all of the initiatives Martine is involved in or will be involved in in regards to her book:

Martine Kalaw will promote her book through public appearances and social networking. Being very active on social media such as Youtube, Facebook, Instagram and LinkedIn, with daily posts, videos and live sessions.

She has a growing mailing list, currently at: 3,800. She is a blogger and contributing writer for the Huffington Post which offers her adequate exposure. Page views:

Motivational speaking is a major part of her career plan and is already getting invitations and appointments. She is currently scheduled to speak at: LinkedIn’s “Transform Her” Conference on April 11, Education First in Washington, D.C., and Hamilton College.

Martine has 7+ years delivering professional development/learning & development coursework. This is also a platform for her to generate more invitations to speak and motivate business professionals.


  • March 16 - My book was featured in reader’s circle, which has a reader following of 200,000+
  • March 28 - Featured in Prep School Alumni newsletter with link to book:
  • April 2 - Facebook Live event o from -8PM and from 8-9PM in partnership with Stay Social, a marketing/pr company.  This event is an opportunity for Stay Social to interview Martine on her book and also the book publishing process.
  • April 5 - Podcast with IpuPodcast will be released: which is an interview of Martine discussing chapters in her book and the immigration conversation at large.
  • April 11 - Martine is a Featured Panelist at LinkedIn’s Women of Color in Tech event called, “Transform Her”.   The conference is expected to generate an attendance of 300 individuals across various tech companies. Martine’s link to pre-order her book will be listed on the website and she will have an opportunity to promote her book during the conference.
  • June 2018 - XWomen panel discussion at a WPP company
  • Summer 2018 - speaking at Hamilton College reunion event
  • Summer 2018 - lead a conversation on Identity during the annual folk festival in Fez Morocco, sponsored by Palais Amani
  • Fall 2018 - deliver a keynote at Education First in Washington D.C.
  • Fall 2018 - delivering a lecture at Hamilton College within the theme of Government

Additional activities:

  1. Radio and television
  2. Press releases to major magazines
  3. Update to personal website
  4. Public lectures including TedX
  5. Attend professional conferences
  6. Utilize social media endorsers and partners


White Women's Memoirs:

  • Eat, Pray, Love, Elizabeth Gilbert (Riverhead Books; January 30, 2007)
  • Wild, Cheryl Strayed (Vintage; June 1, 2012)
  • How To Be A Woman, Caitlin Moran (Harper; July 17, 2012)
  • The Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion (Vintage; February 13, 2007)
  • Down City: A Daughter's Story of Love, Memory, and Murder, Leah Carroll (Grand Central Publishing; March 7, 2017)

In tone and voice, Martine’s story sits among popular American women’s memoirs. A straight-forward compelling prose invites readers to see themselves in the character of Martine. With the potential to capture audiences that enjoy authors such as Gilbert, Strayed and Lamott, Martine’s story adds a depth and different dimension to a genre dominated by the white American woman’s perspective. Like Didion’s memoirs, while accessible, Martine’s story also aims to take shape as a work hailed as a literary achievement.

African-American/Black Women's Memoirs:

  • I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, Maya Angelou (Random House; April 15, 2009)
  • Zami, A New Spelling of My Name, Audre Lorde (Crossing Press; March 16, 2011)
  • The Prisoner’s Wife: A Memoir, Asha Bandele (Scribner; May 8, 2010)
  • No Disrespect, Sister Soulja (Vintage; January 30, 1996)

African-American/Black Women's Fiction:

  • Americanah, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie (Anchor; May 14, 2013)
  • Brother, I’m Dying, Edwidge Danticat (Vintage; September 4, 2007)
  • White Teeth, Zadie Smith (Vintage; May 20, 2003)
  • Behold, the Dreamers, Imbolo Mbue (Random House; August 23, 2016)

Martine’s story shares a legacy with other extraordinary memoirs by Black women authors. However, Martine’s background being informed by prep-school and shaped by peers from various walks of life, Martine’s voice and tone resonates with a more mainstream storytelling style. Less radicalized than many of the women above, Martine’s story relies on nuance to unfold complexities around issues of race and immigration, “normalizing” her experience for mainstream audiences.

Special Interest Memoir: Africa

  • Infidel, Ayaan Hirsi Ali (Atria Books; February 6, 2007)
  • What is the What, Dave Eggers (Vintage; November 13, 2007)
  • A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a Boy Soldier, Ishmael Beah (Sarah Crichton Books; April 1, 2007)
  • I Am Malala by Malala Yousafzai (Little, Brown and Company; October 8, 2013)

Sharing a genre with books written about the African experience of resilience (along with other non-Western countries), Martine’s book combines the perspective of both an insider and an outsider. Audiences from America and the Western world will relate most deeply to Martine’s character, rather than Africans, who might witness reflections of themselves through the eyes of the supporting cast.


This memoir is a work of nonfiction. The experiences, dialogues, locations, and timeline are factual. All names of characters have been altered, except for the names of my mother and biological father, to protect individuals' privacy. 


I was subhuman. The grime you carry under your shoes after trudging through streets. At least that’s what they meant when they referred to me as an illegal alien. They being the immigration court and the judge who loathed me and I him. And she referred to me as a nobody. My mother. She was my lifeline and verification that I was a person. When she died so did my identity—and all I was left with were unanswered questions amplified in a courtroom. Was my name really Martine? Where did I come from? Who were my mother and father?

Thirteen years undocumented. Seven years in deportation procedures. My legal nightmare was cunning; while I thought I was battling the judge, I was pitted against my mother, and sometimes my own attorney would attack me.

Life had become a twisted game of Russian Roulette. Oftentimes, it wasn’t me but my opponent who’d place the muzzle against my head. Click. No bang. Every time that trigger was pulled, I was sure that was it. Life was over. But again click! No bang. Click! No bang. I kept waiting for the trigger to go off, and at one point, I wished the damned thing went off already. Sssss! Ssss! of the cylinder spinning went on for years, replacing self-love with self-defense and cold laughter to drown out that whirring noise.

But one day LinkedIn delivered a countershock to my misery, reviving the connection between my dead father and me like a defibrillator awakening a non-beating heart. He sought me while I searched for my identity, which plunged me into the depths of Africa. He gave me access to a part of my mother I needed to become complete. Rather than an expedition, this was an exorcism of the past, conjuring up the ghosts of my parents from their youth.

What I would encounter in this reunion in Africa would be unimaginable, leaving me changed, but silencing the trigger. This time forever. The heaviness of my history no longer defined me or outweighed the serendipities sprinkled throughout my life, making it easier to go back home, to America.




His voice was the texture of velvet.

It wasn't just any velvet; it was black velvet. 


When I buried my mother, I had also buried my memories of her mistreatment to honor her. But one day in a law office in the once famous Statler Towers in Buffalo, New York, I was asked by my attorney to betray her in order to win my freedom in the Land of the Free.

How audacious of him to even suggest.

This immigration hearing needed to be the final because I was running out of stamina and coping mechanisms. Just how long could I maintain the charade of being a normal American girl? John James, my lawyer, had assured me that everything would go smoothly, as the August 9, 2004 date approached. Today’s appointment was an actual hearing, rather than a Master Calendar appointment. It meant that I would be able to testify and present witnesses on my behalf.

“Why don’t you come into my office for a second,” John James commanded the morning of my hearing, interrupting my reverie.

“What’s wrong?”

“In my office.”

I went.

I knew John well enough by now to distinguish between his condescension and concern. He had a plane face, which offered him little distinction. The kind of face that you could look at for hours but you wouldn’t be able to confirm in a police lineup. His baldness was the only thing that stood out. I could imagine running into this man, who had control over my life, ten years later in the street and trying to figure out where I knew him from.

“Listen,” he said, sitting at the edge of his desk almost hovering over me as my sweaty palms clasped each corner of my chair. “Nothing is wrong. You alluded to the fact that your mom was abusive to you. Did she ever hit you?”

My eyes widened and a sudden panic rushed over me. Please don’t let this conversation go where I think it was headed. He may have asked a follow up question but my mind was elsewhere. I noticed how plain John’s office was for a lawyer.  Shouldn’t he have had photos of Supreme Court judges on his wall or something? He had a scattering of law books but I expected to see more of them. At least his desk was covered in paperwork like all the lawyers I had seen on television. The carpeting should have been nicer but instead it was dingy.

I couldn’t lie to my lawyer so I confessed. “Yeah,” I said with my head hung low and tears streaming down my face as if I had just plead guilty, awaiting my sentencing. My mom whom I called Ya Marie, didn’t just hit me, she used to beat the shit out of me, but I wanted to remain mild in my accusation so I wouldn’t share any more detail. If John dug further, should I also talk about my mother’s verbal assault that pushed me to the brink of death? No, I couldn’t. This wasn’t how today was supposed to play out, this entire case was supposed to be built against my Aunty Amelie, and not my mom.

Before this hearing, John had submitted a petition to adjust my status based on two statutes: 1. Nunc Pro Tunc, translated from Latin as Now for Then, which means a ruling is made based on an earlier law and has retroactive legal effect. Unbeknownst to me, I had a window of time where I was eligible to petition for permanent resident status (green card) after Ya Marie had died. Since the government failed to inform me of my rights, we argued that the government was at fault. Also, since immigration laws changed after 9/11, John argued that I should be treated under the old law—hence, Nunc Pro Tunc—and given a path to citizenship. 2. The Battered Child Statute, which says that an abused minor is guaranteed permanent residency (green card) if the abusive parent or guardian is a legal U.S. resident or in the process of becoming a resident. We were building the case against Aunty Amelie because she was my legal guardian, and abusive.

“We need to tell the court,” my attorney posited. “This is our strongest argument in your case.” He was sitting so close to me at this point and spoke with such fervor that I could smell the milk and cereal that he had for breakfast on his breath.

“But John, I can’t. I just can’t.” I shuddered and shook my head profusely as once buried memories of the abuse resurfaced into my mind.  My esophagus tightened into a rope that I could barely get air through my windpipe.

John’s stupid and messy office was getting louder to the point where I couldn’t hear myself think.  Suddenly the honking and beeping from the cars outside blasted through his office window and the click-clack of his assistant’s heels outside his door became overbearing.  John’s desk creaked as he shifted his weight on it and I couldn’t stand the sound. To John I must have looked like a mouse who had just stepped on a trap.                  

“Look,” he said with a no-nonsense and get-yourself-together tone, “this is the strongest evidence we have to support our argument of battery. All you need to do is to be honest and to tell the truth to the judge and to the court. We could really win your case with this evidence.”

All I need to do? He wanted me to expel my deepest and darkest secrets about my mother who was not alive to defend herself and that was his way of convincing me? Exposing my mom also meant reliving the tormenting words and the beatings and I just couldn’t. I wasn’t ready. But John said that if I did this one thing then we would win the case. Then I could finally have a normal life as an American and I wanted that more than anything. I couldn’t bear living this immigration nightmare any longer.  Why did it have to be at the expense of digging up this other tragedy? Ya Marie’s abuse would live in those legal transcripts for anyone to access and read and make judgments about. What kind of daughter would even consider doing such a thing? I couldn’t bare the idea of my first time breaking the silence of my mother’s lack of love for me to a courtroom full of white men who didn’t know me.

John’s little round eyes bulged out as he stared at me and all I could hear was the tic-tic-tic of the second hand of the clock.  Time was running out before we had to return to the courtroom and continue with my testimony.  I had exactly ten minutes to make a decision about a secret that I buried for almost a decade that would determine my fate. Regardless of the decision, there would be consequences.

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Anaphora Literary Press was started as an academic press with the publication of the Pennsylvania Literary Journal (PLJ) in 2009. In the Winter of 2010, Anaphora began accepting book-length submissions. Anaphora has now published over 240 creative and non-fiction books. Jere Krakoff’s novel, Something is Rotten in Fettig, is a finalist in the 2016 Foreword Indies: Humor (Adult Fiction) competition. ...

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BBL Media & Publishing helps writers realize their dreams through hybrid publishing and consulting, branding, marketing and publicity. We’ve put together a team of seasoned writing, publishing, editorial, design, and book marketing experts who believe in partnering with authors to bring messages that matter to the world – using the highest standards in the industry. BBL Publishing is a Hybrid ...

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We are a hybrid, Rapid Versatile Publisher with 450 published titles in Amazon, 36 of which are bestsellers in USA, United Kingdom, Australia and Canada. Our approach to publishing is slightly different: we are a community-driven, social group with strong knowledge of how modern publishing works, and how to succeed in the extremely competitive market of today. We are also ...

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We help positive people gain the clarity and platforms necessary for their voice to be heard. We provide every service an author needs to build their business using a highly-leveraged book. Yes, you could take the time to find an editor, cover designer, layout designer, distributor, publicist, marketing team, web developer, and branding team yourself. But isn’t your time more ...

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We are the publisher that others are striving to emulate because we are the most author-friendly publishing house in America ! When you become part of the exclusive Isabella Media Inc team, here are a few things you can expect: Beautiful custom cover designs created specifically for your book. Professional editing and text layout and registered ISBN provided. Book is ...

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Gladiator Publishing Co. has held a reputation in the Literary Industry for nearly 100 Years as a Writer-Loyal company. Nearly 100-years later, Gladiator Publishing Company still maintains that strong characteristic. We place our Authors publications first and foremost. You may hear many other "Publishing entities" state that they are "the first" to do this or the "originator/pioneer" of that. If ...

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We have helped 250+ authors to get their books self-published, hit the #1 position in the Amazon bestseller charts and also establish their author website & brand to grow their business. And the best thing is, we do all this without taking away your rights and royalties. Our publishing packages start at $699! Let's schedule a call to discuss the ...

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  • Josh Rubinger on March 12, 2018, 1:38 a.m.

    I'm so proud of you! I can't wait to read your amazing journey!

  • Sallie Rush on March 12, 2018, 3:58 a.m.

    So proud of you! Hope I'm the first to preorder at 11:57pm - 3 minutes before March 12, 2018

  • Lee Constantine on March 12, 2018, 5:11 a.m.

    Thanks so much! Good luck reaching your goal and a publisher!

  • Liyat Haile on March 12, 2018, 12:11 p.m.

    So proud of you, Tini!!! Can’t wait to read your book!!! All my love from across the seas!

  • Randi Vallone on March 12, 2018, 1:02 p.m.

    Congrats again. I always knew you would do great things. Your strength and detmination are inspiring. I will never forget the phone call telling me about your great news on your status.

  • Cheryl Lassota on March 12, 2018, 2:10 p.m.

    Excited! Heard about you & your book from our mutual friend Donna Buckley ~ all my best to you!

  • Bahar Alagheband on March 12, 2018, 2:15 p.m.

    So excited to read this Martine!!! Proud of you beautiful woman inside and out!

  • Annie temmink on March 12, 2018, 2:34 p.m.

    I am so excited for you! This is fantastic. Congratulations 🎈 wishing you so much success and magic

  • Katie Roland on March 12, 2018, 2:42 p.m.

    Congrats Martine! I know you will hit your goal! Can't wait for you to share your story with the world and look forward to reading it myself!

  • Chandra Claypool on March 12, 2018, 2:58 p.m.

    I'm so happy Bahar put this on my radar. I run a website for book reviews: While this is a bit outside of my usual genre, I am truly intrigued and look forward to reviewing this. <3

  • Kiranjot Kaur on March 12, 2018, 3:19 p.m.

    Luv u Martine Rise n Shine. Best Kiran

  • Sylvia Alvarenga on March 12, 2018, 3:23 p.m.

    Just pre-ordered my copy! So excited to read it!! You're such an inspiration. I love your positive outlook and wish you continued success and blessings. Much love.


  • Michelle Martin on March 12, 2018, 3:23 p.m.

    I am so happy to hear about this book Martine and i look forward to reading it!

  • Sheena Gordon on March 12, 2018, 3:29 p.m.

    I am so immensely proud of you! It has been so inspiring to watch you on this journey. This is only the beginning! Love you lots!


  • jemima Mann baha on March 12, 2018, 4:45 p.m.

    HI Martine! Order in, lets see where the next stage goes!!

  • Isabel Ezrati on March 12, 2018, 5:09 p.m.

    So excited for you! Just a heads up, I tried to buy the ‘family’ package but all it would let me buy was the VIP, so I got 4. It might be a glitch to look into

  • Alexandra Knights on March 12, 2018, 5:10 p.m.

    Proud of you!

  • Alexandra Knights on March 12, 2018, 5:11 p.m.


  • Carol Fitzpatrick on March 12, 2018, 7:02 p.m.

    Martine if I like the book I will share it with my Book Club - more sales for you - Carol Fitz-Thanks

  • Jon Bellona on March 12, 2018, 8:18 p.m.

    Go Martine!

  • Juanita Laurel on March 12, 2018, 9:03 p.m.

    Anything for you Martin!

  • Candida Reid on March 12, 2018, 9:55 p.m.

    Let the JOY flow!!! Congratulations!!!!

  • Iyore Adonri on March 13, 2018, 1:30 a.m.

    I can’t wait to read this book! I know it will be fabulous...😉

  • Javed Rezayee on March 13, 2018, 3:29 a.m.

    Martine, congratulations!

  • Calin Trenkov-Wermuth on March 13, 2018, 3:54 a.m.

    I am so excited to read the memoir :-)

  • Farah Tayfour on March 14, 2018, 1:40 a.m.

    Love you Martine !

  • Sara Edeiken on March 14, 2018, 2:12 a.m.

    So excited for you Martine! Can't wait to get my hands on a copy!

  • Leila Mesdaghi on March 14, 2018, 2:24 a.m.

    Lots of love! ❤️

  • Andrea Schwartz on March 14, 2018, 5:40 a.m.

    I am incredibly proud of you. I just read every word of your campaign and am SO in AWE of you . All your hard work. Your dedication. you should be proud, Martine.

  • Kate Hutchinson on March 14, 2018, 6:07 p.m.

    Good Luck and Best Wishes! ~Kate & Nick (friends of Andrea!)

  • Glenn Jean on March 14, 2018, 6:46 p.m.

    A single candle can overcome a room full of darkness.

  • Anna-Marie Woodard on March 14, 2018, 6:47 p.m.

    Martine - Thank you for sharing your incredible story! You are such an inspiration. Sending you so much love and light and wishing you the absolute BEST!

  • Lisa Genovese on March 15, 2018, 3:09 p.m.


  • Herry Pierre-louis on March 15, 2018, 3:30 p.m.

    Really exciting stuff Martine. I'm so happy for you on the release of your book and I'm very proud to be a part of you sharing this with the world. Best of luck and talk to you soon!

  • Ronya Foy Connor on March 16, 2018, 1:05 p.m.

    You're very welcome! Congratulations on making it this far with publishing your memoir. I wish the best to you always! Love, Ronya

  • Ndaya K on March 16, 2018, 4:09 p.m.

    Martine is such a professional and author. I can't wait to read her book!!

  • Florencia Iriondo on March 16, 2018, 9:25 p.m.

    Can't wait to read the book! Thanks for sharing your story with the world. Your journey will inspire many others as it already has inspired me.

  • Carine Camara on March 16, 2018, 10:09 p.m.

    I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. You deserve all the success and happiness in the universe!!!!!

  • Romain Fravien on March 17, 2018, 4:56 a.m.

    Best of luck with the pre-sales. Congrats on the boo!

  • Shoko Carpenter on March 17, 2018, 3:14 p.m.

    I am always with you Martine.

  • Tracy Schmidt on March 18, 2018, 12:19 a.m.

    Andrea is sitting next to me. I can't WAIT to read your book!!!!!

  • Gene Kalaw on March 18, 2018, 12:46 p.m.

    You go cuz!!!

  • Kunwei Lin on March 19, 2018, 12:02 a.m.

    Good job! So proud of you! Love you.

  • Tenise Barker on March 19, 2018, 12:52 a.m.

    Congratulations Martine. I’m so proud of you. I can’t wait to read your book.

  • Obio Ntia on March 19, 2018, 12:19 p.m.

    I can't wait to see the book in print, Martine!

  • Selena Coppock on March 19, 2018, 3:57 p.m.

    This is so exciting, Martine! I can't wait to read your book. About to post to Twitter, also. xoxo

  • Sharon Topi on March 19, 2018, 5:49 p.m.

    Martine! Hamilton College is very proud of you. Can't wait to read your book! - The Levitt Center at Hamilton College

  • Yvette Miller on March 19, 2018, 6:06 p.m.

    I ordered 2 books and would love for you to autograph both,I’m so proud of you and wish you much success. Love you mucho! Wakanda forever xo✊🏽🙅🏽‍♀️

  • Maurice Owen-Michaane on March 19, 2018, 6:25 p.m.

    Just ordered! You are a rockstar martine!

  • Sarah Wolff on March 19, 2018, 6:28 p.m.

    Martine, I am so proud of you and inspired by you.

  • Erick Nunez on March 19, 2018, 7:04 p.m.

    Wishing you all the best Martine! Best, Erick Nunez - Go Hamilton!

  • Karen Sanjines on March 19, 2018, 7:59 p.m.

    Can’t wait to read your book!

  • Anonymous on March 20, 2018, 1:36 a.m.

    Goodluck my dear - you deserve it all <3

  • Ben Rubinger on March 20, 2018, 1:51 p.m.

    So proud of you :)

  • Molly-Jane Rubinger on March 20, 2018, 2:40 p.m.

    I'm so proud of you and your accomplishments!
    Love, Molly-Jane

  • michelle Chaitman-Lynch on March 20, 2018, 2:59 p.m.

    Preorder Done! You are an amazing woman that I have had the honor to know and work with. Hugs to you! Congrats!

  • Esha Tewari on March 20, 2018, 6:08 p.m.

    You are an Inspiration Martine and everyone should know your story to get inspired. Best Wishes!!

  • Li Rosario on March 20, 2018, 9:12 p.m.

    Can’t wait!

  • Kimberley Smith on March 21, 2018, 11:49 a.m.

    Congratulations Martine! My spot on the couch and blanket are waiting for me and your memoir!

  • James Lane on March 21, 2018, 7:07 p.m.

    So proud of you and your amazing successes despite all of the barriers that were placed in front of you. So proud to call you a friend.

  • jay swett on March 21, 2018, 7:59 p.m.

    Best Wishes on the book

  • Leila Kalousek on March 21, 2018, 11:48 p.m.

    Congratulations TINY!!!!! You will be known!!! Claim it. Love u

  • Sara Cohen on March 23, 2018, 6:56 p.m.

    So proud of you- congratulations!!!

  • ALBA REYES on March 24, 2018, 3:33 p.m.

    Hi Martine, just ordered your book. Wishing you much success.
    Alba Reyes

  • Group Four Design Studio Manuel zavala on March 26, 2018, 1:56 a.m.

    Keep Pushing On, Keep On Pushing to the TOP!
    I'm so proud of you! XOXO Manolo

  • Stefania Yanachkov on March 26, 2018, 9:24 p.m.

    So excited to read this amazing story!

  • Lakuan Smith on March 26, 2018, 11:54 p.m.

    Congratulations Martine!!

  • Martine Kalaw on March 28, 2018, 3:22 p.m.

    Senora Waldman ordered 4 copies

  • Raymon Walker on March 29, 2018, 4:16 a.m.


  • Grant Wasch on April 4, 2018, 6:44 p.m.

    Congrats on the book.

  • joanna moskwa on April 5, 2018, 3:01 p.m.

    Congrats! :)

  • Lauren Marquis on April 6, 2018, 2:59 a.m.

    I am proud to call her my personal hero--Martine Kalaw!

  • Gypsy Lorenzo on April 7, 2018, 10:26 p.m.

    I can’t wait to read this book!!! It’s all about supporting woman and their empowerment. Very proud of you Martine!!!

  • Kris Watson on April 8, 2018, 1:47 p.m.

    so proud of you!

  • Sunjay Dixit on April 9, 2018, 6:17 a.m.

    yay congratulations!

  • Anastasiya Blyukher on April 9, 2018, 10:51 a.m.

    So proud of you, Martine! Cant wait to read your book!

  • Tawanda Abdelmouti on April 9, 2018, 5:13 p.m.

    Best of Luck to you Martine, and a friend of Sheena Renee Gordon is a friend of mine! ;)

  • Karen LaChiana on April 9, 2018, 6:37 p.m.

    So happy to support you, Martine! Congratulations on your book!

  • Minnedore Green on April 10, 2018, 8:32 p.m.


  • Kristen Love on April 11, 2018, 10:31 p.m.

    Thank you for choosing to share your intimate life journey with the world, I cannot wait to read your book!

  • Brittany Cowan on April 12, 2018, 7 p.m.

    Martine - I have heard so many great things about you from Farah, and I am so bummed I didn't get to meet you in Nicaragua. Alas, you are up to BIG things, so congrats on the book launch! Very excited to read about your story, and looking forward to meeting you soon!
    :) Brittany

  • Denise Badila on April 14, 2018, 1:04 p.m.

    Hi Martine, just pre-ordered my copy. Wish you all the success you deserve! 😘

  • Denise Gibbon on April 19, 2018, 12:48 a.m.

    Good luck!

  • Brian Giacomello on April 27, 2018, 6:36 p.m.

    It was great meeting you at Sea Salt. Such an amazing and inspiring story :)

  • Raina Bartlett on April 27, 2018, 7:04 p.m.

    Your such an inspiration. I am proud to meet you

  • Jocelyn Jandovitz on April 28, 2018, 6:56 p.m.

    Loved meeting you, and can't wait to read your book! xoJocie

  • Milan Prodanovic on April 29, 2018, 5:01 a.m.


  • Lorena Requejo on April 29, 2018, 11:50 a.m.

    Congratulations and wish you the best. When are we going for ceviche to celebrate.

  • Davina Prabhu on April 30, 2018, 10:42 a.m.

    Inspired by your journey and your courage to share your story and embark upon this dream. You have touched the lives of many!

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